It's been a while since I blogged. Life has been so busy and crazy at times. I have almost completed studies for my Masters. In July, my first grandchild was born. Last summer, I no longer called my best friend friend. One constant in life is change.
In 6 weeks, I will have my Masters degree in Accounting. It has been a long hard journey, but I honestly believe it will be worth it. I can already see a brighter future ahead.
The past few months have found me struggling with the decision to stay in Colorado or move back to Alabama. In my heart, I truly want to stay in Colorado. The culture and lifestyles here suit me. When I think about moving to Alabama, I just cringe because I feel I will be taking a step back instead of moving forward.
One question on everyone's lips lately is "Have you started dating?" The answer is a firm "No". I have such high standards now that I don't think anyone will ever measure up. Also, I have not learned to trust...anyone. As I have said all along, it's going to take an exceptional man to win my heart.
It's taken a long time, but I am happy and content with my life as a single woman. My confidence grows each day. No longer do I need confirmation from a man that I am attractive and desirable. I honestly don't care. Many people would say those are the words of a woman who doesn't care about her looks. Not true. I care about how I look. I just no longer dress or style myself to suit someone else. I dress to make me happy. Of course, I would love to lose more weight. It will happen. I will make it so...for my own reasons.
Underlying everything I've said, is a great deal of anger still. Most of my anger comes from the ex-boyfriend's betrayal, lies, and infidelity. I never loved anyone like I loved him and I worked so hard at making him happy. It angers me that he was such a slimy character. Fortunately, anger can be used as a catalyst for change. I am one strong, independent woman who knows that she can make it without the need of a partner. That is the best revenge...living happy, living well, and loving the life you have built.